<I am the result of mixed several cultures/ethnic marriages
which are still fighting with one another. Humans, or at least myself,
<tend to want to make everyone okay, which is psychologically healthy.
<If you can't do that, then you tend to split: make one group good and
<identify with them and one bad and reject them. This is more workable
<but highly polarized and artificial. Seems to work for some but in
<the same way that half a chocolate cake is less than a whole one, one
<is reduced by rejecting a portion of one's heritage, which is part of
<oneself. A third way of coping is to try to retain them all in your
<consciousness, but then you tend to act a little crazy at times when
<you overidentify with one side or the other and then reverse yourself.
<Inside you feel pain and craziness.
Linda, it sounds like you need to remember that you are the amalgamation of
all of those things--and more! You are a unique and wonderful combination,
and as such, have no need to question your own motives if you are feeling
particularly welsh today, and scots tomorrow. It's you, and that, in itself,
is a very good thing.